Sometimes I can feel you smiling,
I can see you laughing; I can say my things make you feel sometime lighter. You actually
laugh on my stupidity but I like it, because that’s how I make you smile or
even for that matter happy for a second. You stay some place far, and I know
our paths will never meet.
I know you are not the one, but like it’s
said, the wrong ones always seem to take your attention. It’s not actually about wrong
or right, it’s about if you are the one or not.
Even when I know you aren’t, don’t know why but I seem to be getting too
much into that, I may have fallen badly for you, but I still am aware of the
reality.
You know about me, about what I feel,
you understand me better than myself, we are good friends. What more to take
into consideration, I feel now. You make me feel like a total stranger
sometimes, and an awesome friend the other. You flirt like hell with me, and
then we fight. I have learnt and got used to your mood swings, and you have
taught me that someone like you can never let her ego go off.
After a touch of reality actually came
into being, some things changed, my perception did. I saw you as a total
stranger. People are not what they show off to be. They not just hide and play,
but also are untrue to their own selves. What am I supposed to feel right now?
Do you have an answer for that... I don’t know if you’ll read this or not, but I
know you’ll have one... for sure.
You have taught me many things, but
are you now trying to test me? Like trying to see if I am the same? I haven’t changed;
I am just confused, as always. You know that too. Vacations are for enjoying,
have god already decided to teach me something in them too? Oh common I can’t
believe only I have to encounter such beings. It’s me who has hell lot of
questions, my life can never be simple and plain, it’s always so turned, so
twisted. I may call it the twisted fate.
I have tried finding answers, then the
questions fade away and I feel safe, and again somehow new questions manage to
find me. How much should I run? How much am I supposed to bear? Everyone is cool; everyone is fine, enjoying a lot, why
but me? Am I taking it too seriously, is this thing going to turn out to be all
fake? Is destiny again leading me to the same end?
Will I again break like glass? And
then try collecting the broken pieces? To mend myself, to try and heal it all
and then look ahead for a new start.... the same?!!! Is this why it’s said, history
repeats itself? Why me? Oh I am tired of the same, the same thing happening...
I can differentiate now and I try to run away. People ask me why? But do I have
an answer? None it seems...
I don’t know how, when and where
exactly is this going to end. But I sure foresee its end. Somewhere down the
line, I know this is going to be one big lesson. But I am open to it.
Try me! Get on! I am ready for the
challenge!
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