Where my Memories lies

People says words are the best means of communication. But is it the case always anyway ? Is it that we always communicate well when we speak up?

They say always speak your heart, speak what you fill but why it is that when we speak up what we feel then others do react? Sometimes we hurt our loved ones when we speak up.

Never realized it until that day. They says friendship is something where you can speak up what you feel no matter what the thought may be.The other person would definitely understand. But I think that’s not the case always.It feel great when our friends share themselve but its only applicable when it’s a good thought. But had I ever thought that I would speak and could hurt many with a single thought. The thought was misinterpreted.

I have hurted  many people and many friends around me. May be I have failed to understand them. I am guilty about the fact that I have broken many hearts and and hurted many with my words. I screamed but to hurt them was not my core intension. The only thought behind sharing my emotions was just to clear out certain misunderstandings. But in vain. Rather I myself went on to create more misunderstandings.

I am guilty for all that I did. Never thought I could do that ever. But really life is too uncertain. God knows my intension was never bad. I am not guilty of that but I am guilty because the way I had done things was not meant to be that way. But at last people always see what you did, without caring to know the reason behind that. There are situations when we are really frustrated out of every little misunderstandings which grow upto the level of hatred. May be the fear of consequence of speaking up prevents others from ventilating their thoughts. But I never thought that would help the friendship.

May be I was wrong. Should have left the thoughts as they were. I am guilty of ruining everything, losing what I had, and this is something which is going to stay with me a life long. I have to live with it. 

The only reason for these things is the expectations, that we attach with each other and we think we need to be understood rather than understanding each other. Love, haterd, friendship, breakups are not only dictionary words these are something which keep their own existance and these things would continue in life. Lets hope everything gets on the right track. But again I am sorry for all that.