Where my Memories lies

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I have been feeling this from days. I could sense this. Did not want to accept the truth. Its also a truth that when something which we realise is true for us and untill we don't realise its never truth. The fact is that self realisation is the main process of giving shape to truth. We need to know that what we realise, is the fact...the truth which we never wanted to be.

Months have passed but I lived in certain illusions. But slowly and steadily I have come along such a distance from my emotions that I have no problem in accepting the truth. The TRUTH that I have lost. Lost everything that I once was very proud to possess. Lost the faith, a relationship, a friend, lost everything I was proud of. Feels like "meri hi nazar lag gayi". The reason is still unknown to me. The reason which I should have known, But again I know it makes no sense in analysing the past. That won't bring things back.

Once lost it can't be recovered? No matter how much I try I won't get my things back. Will things be the same ever ?

Qestions which hardly anyone can asnwer. I may pretend to be fine with this but it hurts to find that I have lost. The thought of this has created a turmoil in me. I have many friends, many people who care. It may seem that I can ignore what I have lost. But thats never easy. And when its life then how can it be that I can live my life.
I have lost my LIFE...I will live no longer...I lost...

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..Lost in you, Lost in your smile, Lost in your thoughts, Lost to your memories, Lost to you…
Lost in your words, Lost in your hands, Lost in your stubble, Lost in the hair