When sadness comes, it comes in almost every front. And when it comes to love, it never is easy.
Where am I? What am I doing? Why aren’t you with me?
Just one years back we ended ourselves. We didn’t see, we didn’t speak, we
weren’t ourselves. Now all that’s left is all these ashes. I look in the
mirror and find the 'me' you were with. I find the same smile, the same
eyes, the same feeling and yet everything is different.
You are not here. The roads have changed. The cities have changed (though it never was same). The time has changed. The people around us have changed. There
is a desperation in my life that hints at you. I don’t want to accept
it. I deny it, I ignore it. And I end up here, at this stage again.
Why
did we have to separate when we were so good together? Why do you have to
move on with a better life at the cost of me? Why do I have to tell
myself that somehow you still feel the same way?
I
know you took the right decision. I know this was the best for you. I know it was hard. I know it did hurt. I know you were right.
But, I know you could have been the one.
The one who would have made me laugh anytime.
The one with whom I would have acted my age- neither more nor less.
The one with whom I could have controlled my temper.
The one with whom I could have said ‘I married my best friend’.
The one with whom I would have grown old and older.
The one with whom I would have been proud.
The one with whom I would have feared dying.
The one who would have laughed at my sarcasm filled jokes.
The one with whom I would have made love for the first time.
The one with whom I could forget my worries.
The one with whom I would traveled all around the world and still wanted more.
The one with whom my dreams could have been on a canvas.
The one with whom I would have woken up with a smile on my face.
The one with whom I would continue fighting and smile by mistake.
The one with whom my looks didn’t matter.
The one with whom I didn’t have to make an extra effort because everything would have been easy.
The one with whom love would have been enough.
The one with whom I could have so many Our Songs.
The one with whom I could go for countless walks and never get tired.
The one with whom I would have remained a kid forever.
The one with whom my life would have had a witness.
The one with whom a small home would have been enough.
The one who could make my eyes dance.
The one with whom I would have tried to be better.
The one with whom I could think of these things.
Have I lost you? Forever.
I am sad for you are not here. I am happy that you came in my life.
Those had been the best times for me. I don’t know whether I love you.
But you have been The Only One.
(# a post from drafts - 10 Aug 2012
updated - 8 Dec 2012 12:20 am)
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