Where my Memories lies

Ah! I don't believe I've come this far. When I began writing I had no idea I would write so much that someday I will have my own personal blog and moreover I will be writing a 120th post. If, someone had told me earlier I would have termed that person insane. Basically reason being I never had faith in my writing nor did others around me had. In fact people who knew me before I began writing were shocked that I can even put two and two words together and create something meaningful. Then again, there came a person in my life who had faith in me and my writing and somewhere I owe this 120th post to that someone.

For me, this isn't really a day for celebration because one of the most important  person in my life, who had faith in me and who encouraged me not just to write but everywhere is not in my life. We have parted ways. To be very truthful, it's none other than my soul-searched friend to whom I had even dedicated a poem here, but then again situations arise and people walk away and we have to live with that or rather learn to live.

If I'm honest to myself, I was not going to write this post but deep 

inside I had to give credit to that someone and maybe the only person I ever wrote for. I even planned on quit writing but somehow I couldn't and the reason being I still write for that person. There are a lot of happy memories and moments, unfulfilled wishes and dreams and most importantly what I shared with that person. I realized, if I let go of my writing I'll let go of myself the little bit of me left completely and I don't think that's fair. I know it won't affect my friend anymore but I wanna think maybe it might, call it denial or madness or just a reason to write, I'm writing and I'll continue till I can.

I even know, this person/my friend may will never come to my blog again but I wish her a very happy life ahead and I hope her dreams are fulfilled. And that wherever she is at the moment and will be tomorrow may my prayers and my good wishes reach her.

One more thing, before I end I didn't know this was gonna be my 120th post and so I'll post the shayri I had originally intended to post, it is a sad one but nowhere related to this post..just a random poem in urdu I read somewhere but I'm just unable to pen something happy happy at the moment.

I do not want to end on a sad note but I really do not think I can end on a happy note either, apart from the fact that it's first week of year and I wish all my friends a Happy & Prosperous New Year :)

 (# 4th jan 11:46pm)