I crave to be accepted for who I am on my darkest days. I want you to
see how tangled I am with my past, how high my ego is. I want to shower
you with all of my imperfections. I know it will scare you off and I
know it shouldn't be this way but I believe that the best part of me is
something that you need to fight for, not something that was made to
please you. I stay devoted to the people I care about. I have a huge
dream. You will soon realize how softhearted I am- but only if you
choose to stay a little longer. I hope you do but I can't force feelings and I certainly have no rights to keep you.
So I'll wait, even though waiting is tiring and fruitless. To bring a stranger into your life and allow them to catch a glimpse of what it's like to have you around and was thrown away because you don't belong in their expectations- well that sucks. And I can't bear to repeat the same cycle over and over again. Maybe I didn't try hard enough or maybe I should have stop trying way too hard. Either way, it's eating up my bar of patience and I'm beginning to lose hope. I just, I hope you will stay. I don't know who you are yet, and I'm starting to feel like I wouldn't even meet you in the end. Please appear to where I'm typing right now because I need you to hold my trembling hand and tell me that it is all okay now. Please, find me. Find me quick. Because I'm tired of pushing people away without my consciousness. And I'm afraid I might had pushed you away too.
So I'll wait, even though waiting is tiring and fruitless. To bring a stranger into your life and allow them to catch a glimpse of what it's like to have you around and was thrown away because you don't belong in their expectations- well that sucks. And I can't bear to repeat the same cycle over and over again. Maybe I didn't try hard enough or maybe I should have stop trying way too hard. Either way, it's eating up my bar of patience and I'm beginning to lose hope. I just, I hope you will stay. I don't know who you are yet, and I'm starting to feel like I wouldn't even meet you in the end. Please appear to where I'm typing right now because I need you to hold my trembling hand and tell me that it is all okay now. Please, find me. Find me quick. Because I'm tired of pushing people away without my consciousness. And I'm afraid I might had pushed you away too.
(#sun 6th april 1:15am)
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